Friday, June 4, 2010

Dating vs. Mission

So in my previous post I talked about going on a date with Brad. I had been looking forward to it all week. I was almost giddy with anticipation. Well we went out last night and boy was it fun. We had pizza in the park, strolled for a while then went bowling. It was so enjoyable!!! However as soon as I walked in the house I knew something was different for me. I didn't come home like I normally would and say, "Oh it was so much fun!!!!" and be all giddy about a wonderful date. No, I came home and immediately wanted to cry. Yesterday morning I had a spiritual slap right across the face. I was playing the piano and the thought clear as day and very loud said, What are you doing?! You are supposed to go on a mission. Why haven't you worked on your papers more frequently? That's what you are to be doing.... I was brought to tears by this thought and found more thoughts like that going through my head the rest of the day. Let me tell you, that was pretty unsettling. I guess the reason would be because I had this small sliver of hope that I would find someone to be interested in and date and go into a relationship with. So when I got home I was confused and well.. unsettled. I called my friend up and he immediately told me to do four things: 1. pray 2. read my patriarchal blessing 3. read the scriptures 4. go to sleep. I did exactly that. I prayed for confirmation on going on a mission to be comforted and feel committed. Then read my blessing which brought the confirmation and comfort. Next I read my scriptures which gave me the commitment. Finally after saying another prayer I went to sleep with thoughts of putting zeal into preparing to go on a mission. I feel so much better now. I just need to let everybody know ( including Brad) that I'm going on a mission. Its the right thing for me to be doing. Anyway that's my story about my date. Pretty exciting huh?


  1. It's important to stay focused on your goal, but that's no reason to not enjoy yourself on a date, you can do both right? Love ya!

  2. Oh totally! Which is why Im going on another date this week! Like you said I just need to stay focused.

  3. agreed. Going on a mission doesn't mean you can't have a friend at home still and enjoy your time as a single adult until that time...heck you're not on a mission yet.